I did less this break than I have in years. I don’t regret that. I needed to breathe. To just be for a bit. So I did, and I feel better right now than I have in months. It’s funny how I was dragging all this negativity around with me all semester and how doing that led to something heavy building inside me. Whatever that was manifested itself in sickness that stayed with me until the bitter end of December. It’s funny how taking the time to breathe actually made me physically able to really breathe.
I’ve always believed in mind over matter, that a positive attitude creates positivity, in the laws of attraction, in letting go and letting God. But believing and acting on those beliefs are two different things.
I’m sure I’m not alone in that.
I’m going to dedicate much of my blog time to reinforcing my life affirmations.
Thankfulness is one of the keys. I’m incredibly thankful for so many people who have been in my life. Without others I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I’m thankful for my students over the years who gave so much of their time and talent to the Rider media program. I’m thankful for family members and for my small group. I’m thankful for my old writing group that challenged me and taught me and inspired me, and I’m thankful for my new writing group…even though it’s so far away. I’m thankful for my daughter who has always shared her life with me and for my incredible husband who is my best friend and my love.
I’m thankful for BBC and their incredible mysteries and Gilmore Girls and Netflix. I know that seems silly, but my break of nothingness translated to time spent with Netflix, George Gently, Phryne Fisher and the Gilmores.
I’m thankful for Zumba. I forget how much I like it, and then I get started again and it makes me so happy…two days and counting this time.
I could go on, but I think I’ll save the rest for later. 🙂
Such a little word
That means so much
And so little
At the same time
A word full and empty
Like all words but not
Like a word for others
But in reality
It’s a word for you.
Way back before 4×4 took over my classroom and nearly killed my program and me (Can I get an amen, Texas elective teachers?!), I was in my district’s Leadership Cohort two years in a row. The lessons learned were invaluable. One of the best wasn’t even on purpose (unless it was totally on purpose and the teacher just PRETENDED it wasn’t). We were playing this game to review previous months’ work. Our instructor Dr. Bennett threw out questions and we called out answers. It was a party-like atmosphere with everyone laughing and having fun. If we got an answer wrong, Dr. Bennett would tell someone to help us out. It was a completely safe atmosphere. A few minutes into the review, Dr. Bennett remembered she had this button to push if we got the answer wrong. One wrong answer with the wah-wah wrong answer sound and the whole atmosphere changed. People laughed at the wrong answers, but it felt like the person giving the wrong answer was laughed at. The party-like atmosphere turned into one of trepidation. No risks. Dr. Bennett put the button away and said she’d never use it again. It totally ruined the fun of the moment. Weird how a negative SOUND could change so much. There were no grades, the questions were the same, the people in the room were the same. It was just the negative connotation of the wrong answer button.
That’s really been hammered home for me this year…especially the last few days. We can’t always control everything in our rooms, but we can make them safe places for students to take educational risks and we can make sure we don’t start the day with a negative. That’s my goal for the next week and finals.
Happy New Year! Usually I resolve not to make resolutions, but I’m mixing things up this year. 🙂
Back when I made resolutions I always topped mine with 1. to lose weight.
I’m changing that this year. Instead I resolve to get healthy. I was well on my way to that goal this summer, but I let school get in the way. School’s my job, and I love it, but I can’t let it hurt my life. So this year I resolve to go to the Y five times a week, to do card 3 of those times and weights twice.
2. I resolve to make time for my family.
I went to see my brother for the first time this year. Usually he comes to see us. I resolve to make it out to Georgia at least once a year. AND several of my uncles live in Dallas. I resolve to touch base with them more often. Grandma and Grandpa died this year. If we’re going to be close at all, it’s going to take effort. I resolve to work on that.
I started three books last year and finished none. It was a weird writing year for me. I didn’t really commit and I even pushed the writing aside throughout the year. I love writing. It’s part of who I am. I let myself get caught up in “what I want to write” and spent a lot of time thinking and rethinking that. This year, I’m just writing, and I’m finishing what I start.
It’s all fine and good to write. You’ve got to get that writing out to the people that can buy the work. I’ve targeted Harlequin/Silhouette for year without really trying any other markets. I’m going to change that this year. If something comes back rejected, it’s going back out into the big bad world.
It’s easy to get into a rut at school because I’m doing pretty much what I’ve done for 15 yers. I’m going to wrok on planning more and developing new lessons.
I’m a yearbook teacher. I’m going to take photos this year!
7. Finally, Positive.
I let myself get way down this year. It was so bad I couldn’t talk about work without coming close to crying. I love my job. I love my life. But I let the hormones and a few outside forces drag me down this year. I did it consciously. Some people don’t have to wrooy about that. I’m not one of them. So this year, I’m going to keep The Secret and The Success Principles nearby. A friend told me this and it’s true you don’t have to let anyone put their mad, sad, bad on you.
I’m excited about 2011. Happy New Year!