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Bundle Up Babe

I laughed at the weather alert on my phone as I walked into school. It told me the high today was only going to hit 50.

And then I cringed.

Because DD lives in Cleveland where temperatures are set to fall to record lows with windchills of -45, and meteorologists are telling people to make sure they’re completely covered if they have to go outside even for a minute or else they risk death.

DD has to go outside.

Thank GOD the DGDs do not have to go out in that cold.

Mom of a grown up is so hard. I can’t do. I can’t fix. I can only laugh and cry and hug and share and pray and pray and pray.

So that’s what I’m doing tonight and what I’ll be doing the next three days until the polar vortex passes and winter in Ohio is back to normal bundle up babe. ❤️

What I’m Loving: My job, Texas, DH, DD, DGDs, pepperoni, Diet Dr Pepper

What I’m Writing: ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

DD and DGDs

DD and DGDs when the winter was just a little bit warmer.

Maybe Me

Empty Nester.

Middle Aged.

Gigi.

Almost 50.

Remember when….

There’s this post that makes the rounds about being 50 and finally knowing what and who you are. About the strength and wisdom that comes with age.

I don’t feel it. I’m smack dab in the middle of my 49th year, and there are times I feel as lost as I was at 25.

Time passes.

The apartment is…well, just is. Not special. Not home. An after-effect of change.

That’s a weird place to be, a psychological shift of seismic proportions I never expected.

Time is fleeting yet infinite. There are no practices, games, lessons, meetings with DD. There’s work and there’s the apartment. I should have so much time to find me. I would have killed for this time to go to the gym, write, learn to cook, read a book, whatever in those early days. Now the time is here, and I watch the news, sports and ABC dramas then take a magnesium and go to bed where I sleep or think about should haves, could haves, would haves. Weird.

That’s it. I’m feeling weird these days. A little lost, a little found. A wanderer, I guess, looking for me.

Weird. Or maybe not. Maybe it’s perfectly normal and weird is not looking.

Maybe it’s menopause. Maybe this entire post is one existential menopausal reflection. Or is it the opposite of existential?

It is what it is.

I am what I am.

49 is an odd place to be. At least now, in this moment.