When I was nine we moved to Texas.
What I remember from that time: every girl could do a cartwheel and most wanted to be cheerleaders. I could not do a cartwheel, but I did want to be a cheerleader.
In junior high we started gym classes. Nothing in my junior high world was worse than gym. 1. I was overweight. 2. I couldn’t run, shoot baskets, serve volleyballs, hit softballs, do cartwheels, climb ropes or any of that awfulness. I did love that parachute thing we bounced a ball around on, and scooter races were always fun.
Today I went to the gym I joined before leaving on vacation. I’ve been one other time. That was to meet with the trainer last week.
The trainer told me I have a mental block where athletics is concerned. He thought it might have been because of a bad coach. But it isn’t that. I LOVED one of my junior high PE teachers. She absolutely believed in me. She believed in all of us.
I don’t really know what the problem is.
But I know the trainer is right about my mental block.
I know because I have to psych myself up to drive up the road to go, and then I have to psych myself up to get out of the car and go inside.
Today I sat in the parking lot and told myself to stop being so ridiculous.
And then I took this selfie.
But I don’t know. I look at it now and don’t really feel very funny.
A million moons ago I started this blog because it was January, I’d started a diet and I wanted to develop my writing voice.
Going to the gym is just part of the story.