Daily Archives: April 3, 2005

The Weight Game

UGH! This week’s been the worst in months. Not sure why. For some reason I was HUNGRY beyond belief every time I came home from work. Instead of ignoring it, eating some fruit or going for a walk, I gave in and ate nachos or candy or any of a million other things guaranteed to make me feel like crap. I don’t know why. It’s like Lent was over, I was free to eat chocolate and all the chocolate in the world needed to watch out! I was on a mission.
I still worked out five times this week. I just really have to focus on this during the week ahead. It’s essential.
Maybe I just needed to be reminded that while some people don’t have issues with food, I DO. I always have. I always will. Even when I reach goal.
This week’s going to be a big challenge. My brother’s going to be here with his family Tuesday-Friday. DD’s birthday is Wednesday. It’s deadline week for the newspaper and I have to start working on leadership for next year.
So I’m going to do some pre-goals:
1.) Report my week HONESTLY tomorrow. Own the issues. 🙂
2.) If I’m hungry when I get home, I’ll eat fruit or popcorn
3.) Work out five days this week
4.) Eat three good point friendly meals every day of the work week. **Especially make sure I eat a quality lunch to make sure I don’t have a repeat of last week.
5.) LOST the focus on the weight and FOCUS on the HEALTH!!!
#5 is the most important of those pre-goals. I’m not sure what happened last week or why, but I think that might be the key.

Desperate TV

I love Desperate Housewives. Even though my mom constantly sends me e-mails about how horrible it is for my mind, I love it. It makes me laugh. It makes me cry. It is AWESOME! I don’t know what about it draws me. It’s over the top and totally believable at the same time. The characters are so real. I feel like I know these people.
I want that in my books and I don’t know how to get it. I guess by writing more, by getting to know my characters more, by paying more attention.
More attention like Kelly Armstrong did in Bitten. I read the book this weekend after hearing tons about it and Dime Store Magic. The book disturbed me. It was so dark. I felt so bad for the heroine. But I couldn’t stop reading. I HAD to know what happened and who the bad guys were. I don’t usually get into books like this. When my students asked me what I was reading, I heard myself saying, “Well, it’s this murder mystery only the heroine is a werewolf and her pack is under attack,” and I was a little shocked I was reading the book. I read Karen Whiddon’s werewolf book and loved it, but it was WAY tame compared to this. I read the Anita Blake series until Anita lost her humanity. I LOVED that series, but when Anita lost her humanity it made me too sad to continue reading her stories. My friends say I take things too seriously. I guess I do. I loved Anita because she was both light and dark, good and evil. but the evil was always motivated. She finally got to the point that the light had to go away. I respect that LKH stayed true to her character, I just can’t read her anymore. But that’s okay because LOTS of other people do. And they love her.
I hope people will one day love my characters. That they’ll feel like they know them. That they’ll mourn if I change them into someone they can no longer read. I want to write powerful stories that move people. I guess that starts with me making the commitment to sit at the computer and create stories. It’s a commitment I used to have no problem making. Today I sit at the computer and think about writing and go hang out on bulletin boards or e-mail instead. I don’t know why. But I do know it’s a choice. I can continue to read great books and watch great TV and talk about how I want to do that one day or I can read great books, watch great TV and sit down at the computer and DO THAT TODAY!
It’s just like anything else. There’s no magic, no secret. Sit down and work.